being OKU for a month.... sob sob.... part 5

dear bloggie,

it was my 5th day being OKU,

i just couldn't sleep at night like i used to..

i just couldn't swallow the rice that i loves so much..

how am i going to live my life??

i was supposed to meet d doc today,

but the doc who treated me dat day isnt there..

will go again 2molo..

haiz..

i guess i dont need the insurance thinggy..

i just want my hand back...

listening to jay's song..

reminds me of him.. again..

yeah,

im trying to forget,

trying to let go..

请帮助我..

不知带我要该怎么办..

can u take my hands?

take me away from this miserable thinggy??

我知道我是stupid..

天天我想他。。

可是他也想我吗？？

can i go tru this alone??

trapped in this room without no one to talk,

no one to chat...

yeah,

i asked too much,

did i??

hope dat i can use my hand a.s.a.p...

or else my manager wont let me go back to work..

i wanna work..

missed my workplace..

im goin crazy..

misses sum1 who never think of me since he left..

haiz..

i've gotta stop this..

have to stop this..

must stop this...