wish that this prob will solve soon...

act i dunno wats d main prob of this situation...

it just..

it happens out of sudden..

today we r okay discussing bout sumthing,

sumthing that doesn't offend me nor him..

n suddenly we weren't contacting each other for few days...

im busy with my work,

while he's been busy with his orientation week..

okay, fine..

no offence bout this..

then i try to call him d day after d orientation finishes..

he didn't pick up his phone..

okay, fine..

i text him..

n waiting for him to reply..

n waiting..

waiting..

n still waiting...

still,

no response...

try to call him again..

still no response from him...

fine..

maybe he's busy..

tried to be more patience...

text him again..

still...

no response...

call him again...

still..

no response..

fine..

maybe he's out of credits..

so i went out n reload for him..

n wait till he text me back..

waiting..

n waiting...

n still waiting..

still,

no response...

im so worried to death..

tot sumthing bad happened to him..

did he fell sick?
did he had car accident?
did he have a fight with his colleges?

my mind bcomes more unstable..

my fwens sad seeing me so down..

she gave a phone call to him..

i was hoping dat he wont pick up..

but i was wrong...

n i felt like bursting into tears..

when he did pick up his phone to unknown numbers,

instead of mine..

haiz..

i just dunno wat to do wif him..

is't he's trying to avoid me?
why?
where did i go wrong?
what did i do till he suddenly bcuming lidiz?
haiz..

im torn apart day by day..

so i text him said he wont be seeing me nmore..

but then its not wat i want..

i just wanna know dat is't true dat he did want to avoid me?

n the results?
haiz..

u know it ady...

i just wanna sit n talk with him rite now..

if he can gimme one good reason for not thinkin bout him nmore,

i'll leave instantly..

if not,

im sooo dead..

but then..

he wont see me.. i think..

haiz..

im such a fool

minHo: cute!!! joKwon: lolololololz!!!!!

haha..

i lurve minho...

so cute...

he's kinda shy dancing lidat in front of ppl...

jokwon..

lolz..

he never stops makin ppl laughing out loud..

haha!

credits:unknowncarrot3@yt

2pm rehearse for MBC dance battle!!

hoho...

i lurve 2pm....

^^

credits: babochorom6

MBC special stage ~ 2pm & shiNee ^^

act im browsing tru d net just to find sum lyrics,

but then i found these... 

huhu...

how cum i didnt know bout this??

hurm....

but then,

i really loves this!!!

gya~~

but....

junsu isnt there.....

huhu

minho oppa was there...

haiz...

credits: chyansie9@yt

even if i die, i can't let you go

i dunno y...

but sumhow this song resembles my heart rite now..

Even if I die, I can't let you go

Eoryeodo apeun geon ttok gata
Sesangeul jal moreundago apeungeol moreujin anha

Gwaenchana jil georago wae geojitmareul hae
Ireohke apeun gaseumi eotteohke shwipge natgesseo
Neo eobshi eotteohke salgesseo geuraeseo nan

Jugeodo mot bonae naega eotteohke neol bonae
Garyeo geodeun tteonaryeo geodeun nae gaseum gochyeo nae
Apeuji anhke na saragal surado itge
Andwindamyeon eochapi ussal geo
Jugeodo mot bonae

Amuri niga nal milchyeodo kkeutkkaji butjabeul geoya
Eodido gaji mothage

Jeongmal gal georamyeon geojitmareul hae
Naeil dashi manna jago useu myeonseo bojago
He eojijan mareul nong damirago animyeon nan

Jugeodo mot bonae naega eotteohke neol bonae
Garyeo geodeun tteonaryeo geodeun nae gaseum gochyeo nae
Apeuji anhke na saragal surado itge
Andwindamyeon eochapi ussal geo
Jugeodo mot bonae

Geu manheun shiganeul hamkke gyeokkeot neunde
Ijewa eotteohke honja sallan geoya
Geureohken mothae nan mothae

Jugeodo mot bonae, jeong mallo mot bonae, naega eotteohke neol bonae
Garyeo geodeun tteonaryeo geodeun nae gaseum gochyeo nae
Apeuji anhke na saragal surado itge
Andwin damyeon eochapi mossal geo
Jugeodo mot bonae

TRANSLATIONS



Even though I'm young, the pain is the same
Just because I don't know the world very well
Doesn't mean that I don't know pain

Why do you lie, saying it'll be okay?
How will my heart that hurts this much
Be healed so easily?
How will I live without you?
That's why I

Can't let you go, even if I die
How am I suppose to let you go?
Whether you go or leave, fix my heart
If you can't fix it so that I won't be in pain
So that I can at least live
I wouldn't be able to live anyway
I can't let you go, even if I die

No matter how much you push me away
I'll hold onto you until the end
So that you won't be able to go anywhere

If you're really going to leave, then lie
That we should meet again tomorrow
That we should meet as we smile
If breaking up wasn't a joke, then I

Can't let you go, even if I die
How am I suppose to let you go?
Whether you go or leave, fix my heart
If you can't fix it so that I won't be in pain
So that I can at least live
I wouldn't be able to live anyway
I can't let you go, even if I die

We went through so much time together
How are you telling me to live by myself now?
I can't do that, I can't

I can't let you go, even if I die
I really can't let you go
How am I suppose to let you go?
I can't let you go
Whether you go or leave, fix my heart
If you can't fix it so that I won't be in pain
So that I can at least live
I wouldn't be able to live anyway
I can't let you go, even if I die


im talking crap again....
but its a nice song...
^^

gettin dOwn.... haiz...

haiz...

im almost goin crazee...

wen i saw dat pink car wen we were heading back from HQ today..

i tot it was him...

d plate number seems like his number...

the car design almost d same...

my tots were all messed up..

i really tot it was him..

but then...

wen i saw d person comin out from d driver seat isnt him..

i dunno how i felt dat time..

relief?

frust?

dunno ar..

it was all messed up...

crap..

im still here..

not moving..

how am i ever gonna forget him??

haiz..

nega.. babosseyo...

hAppy burfdaY oPpa!!!!!!!! ~saranghae~

yeah,..

finally oppa turns 22!!!!

hohoho....

wa~

oppa is a grown up d!!!

hoho...

*clap2......

saranghae oppa..

miss u so much...

may ur drama will be superb...

stay well la..

eat well...

again,

saranghae!!!

hearTquAke......

hurm...

how to say diz....

do o ever felt like...

this person is actually just in front of ur eyes,

but he seems so far away....

have u ever feel liddat???

if yes,

u;re same wif ma track..

hurm...

love is pain...

no more words i can ever describe...

yeah..

im still in my depressed mode..

doe i looked like i'd easily move on n forget evrything..

but the truth is..

im still thinkin of him...

im still stuck here..

not moving an inch..

haiz...

meet ma buddy just now..

long time didnt chat wif him...

his prob isn;t d same wif me..

but then,

he took the same decision i made lastime...

leave dat person n try to move on....

yeah..

nowadays,

its not like rapunzel,

its not like cinderella..

nor sleeping beauty...

bcuz

there;s no meaning of waiting...

gotta move on

if dat person shows no more positive attitude towards ur r/ship..

get wat i mean?

hoho...

m i talking crap again?
haiz...

if u dont get it,

just pretend dat u understand, k?
^^

yeah..

d part wer im not able to move on yet...

hurm.....

im trying my best...

gambate ne??

^^

to all broken heart ppl out there,

isshoni gambate, ne?

women dou jia you!!

yoish!!!

untitled................again...

guess im gonna crap all nite long...

1 thing wanna share wif u...

i wAtChed PERCY JACKSON!!!!!!!

hohoho...

yayyayayayay!!!!!

finally...

yeah...

im crapping again...

hoho...

im goin crazee...

untitled................

hurm...

i dunno wat to say here...

its been a while since my last post, rite?

i miss takin pix...

huhu...

i did took some pix using ma '2nd bro's cam last thurs n fri..

but ma 'eldest bro' dlte half of them..

huhu...

crap...

i actually dunno wat 2 say...

haiz...

eUnhYuk vs tEukie!!!!!! ~ pillow fighto!!!

hoho...

 its only d cut scene from ytday star king...

hoho...

eunhyukie was veru fierce,

teukie tried to strike,

but he end up falling...

poor teukie..

he's gettin old d...

haha..

but i love the ending

where eunhyukie tucks teukie to bed..

haha...

so funny

=p

miNho oPpa!!!!!! aNdWae!!!!! no!!!!!!!

its ytDay's sTArkiNg sHow...

omo.... omo...

oettokhe??

minho...

minho...

oppa.............

*tears..................................................*

Yuri vs Seohyun...

omo....

im dead......

yeah...

i know im slightly older than oppa......

but...

oppa.....

why her????

wae??

wae????

why u're suddenly bcum player??
huhu...
eunhyuk so funny when he said,
to be continued next week,
and oppa like..
thanks.. u save ma butt
lolz...
envy for jangdongmin n eunhyuk..
they get to be hugged by oppa...
huhu...

but then......
omo...

omo....

im gonna die....

how could oppa choose her???

T_____________________________T

so sad...

sad...

really sad...

shinja...

T_______________________________________________________T

oppa,

shiro!!!!
i hate u!!!

*suddenly 2pm's hate u song bcame d bground song~~~*

oppa,

naega, bugo shipeo...

naega, saranghago shipeo....
huhu,...

just a kid??? or a teenager??? haiz.. part 1

haiz....

d good way to start my post...

nge~

sumthing happen lately dat pissed me off...

yeah...

its dat person again...

same person ever since i went back home...

dat person,

if u see from far away,

she looked innocent...

very innocent..

u will guess that this little thingy wont able to hurt a soul..

cuz she;s so damn innocent...

hoho..

for me,

facing her 12hrs everyday...

haigooo..

makin ma head dizzy...

let us see why i said dat..

situation A

mie: adek, lets eat dinner together!!! (i shouted from downstairs)

adek: ........... (no respond)

mie: adek!!!

adek: wat ist?

mie: just get ur butt here n eat together with me!!!

adek: nape makan?? (why should i eat???)

mie: then? u dun wanna eat, ka? (startin to pissed off)

adek: i want... (slow, deep voice)

mie; get down here la sayang...

adek: ..................... (no respond)

mie: im eating now.. later u eat alone ya....

adek: ................ (stamp her feet)

mie: get down here la....

adek: but the worms still sleeping (referring to the worm that helps her to digest all the food dat she eats)

mie: they;re all hungry... come on la... get down here sayang.. lets eat....

.........................................................................

adek:.................. (moving 1 foot per 5 secs to move)

mie: hurry la... or else im going to finish my meal n leave u....

adek: *starting to cry...... the worms is getting mad... they're all hungry for food... (stops her movement)

mie: okay la... okay la... just get down here, okay??

adek: .................. (moving 1 foot per 10 secs)

...

......

.........

............

yeah...

dats d story...

managed to ask her to join us dinner after almost 15 minutes waiting for her to come down..

haiz...

this is just one of the scene..

d conversation is act half malay, half eng..

just translate it to eng.. haha..

i just wanna bite her!!

urgh!!!

d question that she always ask is..

nape makan???

dush!!!!

knocked down!!!! (like in d  korean games)

hoho....

wait for the part 2..

soon...

dOwn... dOwn... dOwn....

reli wanted to smile

可是不知道要笑容什么。。

haiz...

我很想他。。

我很爱他。。

可是我不知道要怎么办。。。

我告诉你，

我是baka bakashi...

是对了。。

我每骗你了。。。。

我很希望，我可以做sumting...

hopefully...

eMo~~ miSs mY miNnie so mUch... T___T

haiz...

dunno y...

im just not in d mOod...

is opPa dOin fiNe??

minnie,

im So soWie i haVen't update bOut u for the paSt feW weEks...

hearD u've beEn busy wiTh ur tiGht scHedule...

i kNow itS haRd for u to bOth dOing tHings in jPan,

and tHen hV to go bAck to koRea fOr ur dRama filming...

haiz..

wish omma n appa takes good care of u...

oppa..

i miz ur smile...

i miss ur laugh...

i miss u makin fun of ur hyungs...

oppa,

im really down rite now...

since dat person turned me upside down,

i dont really have d heart to do anything...

i guess this is wat i get wen leaving u behind for other guy...

sowie i didn't mean to hurt u by fell in love wif ur dongseng...

haigooo~

but he's tOo dAmn cUte!!!!

after u've beEn so busy wif wOrk,

minho accompanies me a lot...

huhu..

he's dOin well on Let's Go Dream Team Season 2...

reli lurves his passion of winning..

it melts my heart....

dOe,

my heart is still longing for u..

cant u see it???

saranghae..

hope u're doin well n eating well...

im just so not okay..

need u..

really need u rite now...

oLd hobby, bUt stiLl a hObby...

huhu...

actually,

i loves reading book so much..

but dats kinda 10-15 years ago??

where i'd even bring my books while im eating??

hurm..

and where did it go??

i don't love to read books anymore..

no support??

hurm...

i guess so...

as i grew up,

my mum no longer brought me sci-fi or mystery or ghost book anymore..

and i started to not used to have books around me...

and i don't have the budget to buy expensive books like

Harry Potter,

or

Twilight,

or

Narnia,

or anything dats related...

hurm..

as times goes by,

and i've become a bit clever,

i learn wats d use of d net all about!!

reli lurves it!!

gya~

it allows me to dload few stuffs for free (illegally or legally?? im not sure...)

well,

i do have my hands on few eng books...

recently fullfilled my dream of continuing my reading on MIDNIGHT SUN,

which is the other version of TWILIGHT..

in twilight, stephanie meyer emphasis bout how it feels to be BELLA..

in midnight sun, she wrote bout how prince-charming-EDWARD,

felt wen bella came to d school..

reli romantic!!

bla...bla..

haha..

btw im still collecting new stuffs..

as im suddenly interested with PERCY JACKSON,

im waiting for a fwen to email me the full version of the book...

i'd already have the 1st and the 5th one,

just being patient to complete it..

d main act reli cute!!!

cant wait to watch next week!!!

=p

moVies.... mOvies....

its been soooooooo loooonnnnnggggggg since i watched movies in cinema!!!

d last one was the movie 'The Box'

together wif ma buddies..

huhu..

and when was dat??

2 MONTHS AGO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gosh...

seriously NEED to go and watch new movies....

i haven't watch AVATAR!!!

so does SHERLOCK HOLMES!!!

aduish!!!!

wanna hit my head on d wall...

evrytime im free,

my fwenz weren't....

evrytime i don't have money,

they invited me to go out...

haiz...

its just not my luck,

isn't?

i really hope i can watch either case 39,

or cirque du freak,

or sherlock holmes,

or avatar

tomolo..

i dun mind if im goin alone...

just wanna release all the stress inside...

i just cant wait to watch diz!!